and life to keep to a pattern. Sometimes, the pattern isn't a nice one and you attempt to opt out. But, it falls back into the same cycle and you feel betrayed.
In March, I had an expensive procedure done to eliminate problems in bleeding. It was wonderful to be free of pain, excessive blood loss, weakness, and overall discomfort. This week, it is returning. I want to cry. The damn thing isn’t entirely paid for and it was for no more than 6 months of peace of body. This week, in particular, is probably the worst week for it to come back. My last week here at mom’s. I have so much to do and my body demands rest. I can rest next week, in Oregon, but am afraid by then, it will be too late. I will do which needs and wants done, but I’d enjoy it so much more if my body was less cranky! Thankfully, good things help erase the horrid crankies and there are many of those in this bittersweet week ahead.
Will be calling my doctor to ask when he can set me up for a visit. And maybe this time the insurance company will let me get the hysterectomy, which would truly end all the problems. To have had it done instead of all the testing and procedures which deemed the larger one unnecessary. This would have been the best bet in the long run. I am a firm believer in that! Alas, no one asked me, nor did we find a bazillion dollars under a rock. Teeth and seeing are important and this is ‘only a week’, but oh my!!! It is a hellish week or more.