― Hannah Hurnard, Hinds' Feet on High Places
One of the things I have avoided for years are high places. I am 5'2" and am pretty sure God did that for a reason. Tall people are wonderful and when I get to heaven, I am going to use those wings to fly me at least 2 inches off the ground every day. (maybe even 3!) I used to not mind climbing mountain sides or ladders or sitting on a roof and flying in a plane has (thankfully) never bothered me at all. But, something happened and I ended up terrified of me being higher than two feet off the ground.
I think it happened when I was at college. I was stuck on a ladder for a very long time. A very HIGH ladder over some floor to almost ceiling windows. By the time I was rescued, my fear of high places was born. I have been terrified often in buildings (I went to a Steven Curtis Chapman/Mercy Me concert in Portland at the then Rose Garden and was petrified most of the show!), on tall stairs, and counters (something I often need to climb on). I learned to do many high place things with my eyes shut, which isn't entirely safe, but it seemed to work. Thankfully, I have many friends who have helped lead me around when I closed myself in my fear.
Summer of 2014, I learned to do many things. One lovely day, I was with a friend who wanted to visit Multnomah Falls and I decided I was going to go up and WALK on that bridge (months earlier part of the bridge had been broken by a rock, but it had been fixed). I will never forge the amazing feeling I had as I crossed that bridge and my friend took my picture. I had done it! I had gone someplace terrifying and I had survived.
I am still cautious around high places, ladders often make me nervous (mostly cuz one of my legs is not as strong as it could be), yet I am not incapacitated by the experience anymore. I will, however, ask for help if I'm in a store and can't reach something. Oddly, businesses don't care for customers to climb on shelving to reach items. I am still working on crawly creature with long legs. I'll keep you posted~