I was upset last night and am today, too. It doesn't matter, but I am upset.
I've been in Alaska for a week and have got the internet up and running for mum. I've updated my family blog at least 3 times, sent the guys at home a post card, several emails, and called a couple of times. When I called last night, The Craftsman (who is VERY busy and is not fond of technology) mentioned he had not looked at the blog yet, or read the post card. He has read the emails and thought about sending me one back. The phone calls are just phone calls, They are about busy things and when I mentioned I was about ready to get the kayak out and get some exercise cuz I was feeling really fat, there was silence on the other end.
One of the toilets is leaking and I am unable to fix it. Mr. Kramer, of the background photo on this blog, suggested I send him photos and he'd try to help diagnose the problem. I mentioned this to The Craftsman and he said he could do that...but he didn't even THINK to suggest it first. I understand, we don't do technology, so he is used to people at work taking photos and vids with their smart phones and communicating that way. (we do not have those things) I also get that he is busy doing the things he always does when he's home. He said he missed me and didn't like having to do everything by himself. The few hours we spend together and the few things I do, should NOT make that big of a difference. I make meals, fix his lunch, and do a few chores in the house. But, it appears it does.
This is just a rant. But, it is my blog and I can rant if I want to. I was going to get to go see a friend this afternoon (I was supposed to stay the night with her and her family, however, they have a sickness and I do NOT want to get sick!). Mum was going to come with me (she has to, she's my wheels and I honestly think she prefers me being here for her) and now we can't go in. Someone is going to come out and look at the toilet. Which is very important, but not what I wanted to do. I am feeling rather lonely. Funny, last summer I wasn't lonely at all. I was very busy and had the ability to leave when I wanted to. Know, my only escape is the kayak.
I haven't had but two slight tummy aches since arriving, but that may be the change in medications. I don't feel very well, my right leg is so wonky at times and my back aches often (that greenhouse I posted about in blogstuff was a LOT harder on my body than I thought it would be). I don't feel necessary at all, rather invisible unless I am needed. It must be just my lot in life! Most people don't see me unless I am needed for something. I've turned off chat for many of my friends for that reason and unfriended one person. It will be better this way. I don't want friends who just want me to help them. I am being selfish. I want friends who can help ME. If they want to. But, I guess til they see me, I'll hide in the moss and just look at the world from my odd point of view.